Eryka Badu's Window Seat and Choreographer and Julliard Student Garth Johnson's choreography speak to me and my current feelings. Check them both out and let me know what you think.
Window Seat
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uS3ikrTJTqk
Garth Johnson's "Sixth"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r8nQe29JUR4
I hold myself back so much. Mentally, physically. I'm so scared to just be...
But I'm working on me.
Monday, March 29, 2010
New Art... New ME
This is the START of a new blog and through this creation I hope to re-discover myself. I would be so very delighted if you all will come on this journey with me.
Over the past few years I've discovered my love of art. The artist within me has of course always been there but it wasn't until I met my current boyfriend and fellow artist, Andrew, that A. Jay emerged and I produced this.
My first attempt at photography, having no prior knowledge of how a camera works or even grasping the idea of light, form, exposure, etc, seemed to have gone well. The photo shoot itself was very much unplanned and not executed in the most efficient way. I did what felt natural.Overall it was fun and my models were very patient with me. I left the photo shoot confused about the direction of my life. I did however know these three things.
1. Taking photos brought me ABSOLUTE JOY
2. I loved ART
3. I wanted to do this the rest of my life.
For a great part of my life I have always been told that nothing was impossible and that it was never too late to achieve whatever I wanted to. I reaffirmed these things to myself and decided that I would become a photographer. I spent many nights conversing with Drew and Von about being an artist and what that means. I've never seen two people try to convince someone so much of a talent they could not see in themselves. I want to thank both of them. Two years later I find myself at a brick wall of sorts. (Mostly put up by yours truly). As the end of one chapter came to a close (Undergraduate career) I presented what I thought to be my best work to an art school. These photos:
Among 17 others were submitted to Columbia College in hopes of admittance. Imagine my pain when I was rejected from that school with a single white piece of paper that stated, "We at Columbia hold our students to a certain level"... It of course went on with the pleasantries one comes to find in a rejection letter. I took it so personally and for a long time I wallowed in self-pity.
I wasn't good enough?
For a long time this truth appeared in my mind as a question. I kept asking myself if I was good enough and allowed this doubt to trickle into other aspects of my life and here I am today. I'm not all the way healed, but the question isn't about whether I possess the talent. It's only a matter concerning time.
I WILL be good enough.
But I have to put in the man hours to deserve what it is I want. Everyday I teach myself something new concerning photography and more generally ART. I will share what I learn here and hopefully grow from it. Isn't that what life is about?
GROWTH?
The ability to express one's self is a God given talent. I won't waste what He has given to me.
Peace and Love
A. Jay
Over the past few years I've discovered my love of art. The artist within me has of course always been there but it wasn't until I met my current boyfriend and fellow artist, Andrew, that A. Jay emerged and I produced this.
My first attempt at photography, having no prior knowledge of how a camera works or even grasping the idea of light, form, exposure, etc, seemed to have gone well. The photo shoot itself was very much unplanned and not executed in the most efficient way. I did what felt natural.Overall it was fun and my models were very patient with me. I left the photo shoot confused about the direction of my life. I did however know these three things.
1. Taking photos brought me ABSOLUTE JOY
2. I loved ART
3. I wanted to do this the rest of my life.
For a great part of my life I have always been told that nothing was impossible and that it was never too late to achieve whatever I wanted to. I reaffirmed these things to myself and decided that I would become a photographer. I spent many nights conversing with Drew and Von about being an artist and what that means. I've never seen two people try to convince someone so much of a talent they could not see in themselves. I want to thank both of them. Two years later I find myself at a brick wall of sorts. (Mostly put up by yours truly). As the end of one chapter came to a close (Undergraduate career) I presented what I thought to be my best work to an art school. These photos:
Among 17 others were submitted to Columbia College in hopes of admittance. Imagine my pain when I was rejected from that school with a single white piece of paper that stated, "We at Columbia hold our students to a certain level"... It of course went on with the pleasantries one comes to find in a rejection letter. I took it so personally and for a long time I wallowed in self-pity.
I wasn't good enough?
For a long time this truth appeared in my mind as a question. I kept asking myself if I was good enough and allowed this doubt to trickle into other aspects of my life and here I am today. I'm not all the way healed, but the question isn't about whether I possess the talent. It's only a matter concerning time.
I WILL be good enough.
But I have to put in the man hours to deserve what it is I want. Everyday I teach myself something new concerning photography and more generally ART. I will share what I learn here and hopefully grow from it. Isn't that what life is about?
GROWTH?
The ability to express one's self is a God given talent. I won't waste what He has given to me.
Peace and Love
A. Jay
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