BE AFRAID...
I'm taking my photography to a new level. I'm on a new level.
So ELEVATED!
join me up here...
Alex Jay
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
Monday, March 29, 2010
Window Seat
Eryka Badu's Window Seat and Choreographer and Julliard Student Garth Johnson's choreography speak to me and my current feelings. Check them both out and let me know what you think.
Window Seat
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uS3ikrTJTqk
Garth Johnson's "Sixth"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r8nQe29JUR4
I hold myself back so much. Mentally, physically. I'm so scared to just be...
But I'm working on me.
Window Seat
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uS3ikrTJTqk
Garth Johnson's "Sixth"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r8nQe29JUR4
I hold myself back so much. Mentally, physically. I'm so scared to just be...
But I'm working on me.
New Art... New ME
This is the START of a new blog and through this creation I hope to re-discover myself. I would be so very delighted if you all will come on this journey with me.
Over the past few years I've discovered my love of art. The artist within me has of course always been there but it wasn't until I met my current boyfriend and fellow artist, Andrew, that A. Jay emerged and I produced this.
My first attempt at photography, having no prior knowledge of how a camera works or even grasping the idea of light, form, exposure, etc, seemed to have gone well. The photo shoot itself was very much unplanned and not executed in the most efficient way. I did what felt natural.Overall it was fun and my models were very patient with me. I left the photo shoot confused about the direction of my life. I did however know these three things.
1. Taking photos brought me ABSOLUTE JOY
2. I loved ART
3. I wanted to do this the rest of my life.
For a great part of my life I have always been told that nothing was impossible and that it was never too late to achieve whatever I wanted to. I reaffirmed these things to myself and decided that I would become a photographer. I spent many nights conversing with Drew and Von about being an artist and what that means. I've never seen two people try to convince someone so much of a talent they could not see in themselves. I want to thank both of them. Two years later I find myself at a brick wall of sorts. (Mostly put up by yours truly). As the end of one chapter came to a close (Undergraduate career) I presented what I thought to be my best work to an art school. These photos:
Among 17 others were submitted to Columbia College in hopes of admittance. Imagine my pain when I was rejected from that school with a single white piece of paper that stated, "We at Columbia hold our students to a certain level"... It of course went on with the pleasantries one comes to find in a rejection letter. I took it so personally and for a long time I wallowed in self-pity.
I wasn't good enough?
For a long time this truth appeared in my mind as a question. I kept asking myself if I was good enough and allowed this doubt to trickle into other aspects of my life and here I am today. I'm not all the way healed, but the question isn't about whether I possess the talent. It's only a matter concerning time.
I WILL be good enough.
But I have to put in the man hours to deserve what it is I want. Everyday I teach myself something new concerning photography and more generally ART. I will share what I learn here and hopefully grow from it. Isn't that what life is about?
GROWTH?
The ability to express one's self is a God given talent. I won't waste what He has given to me.
Peace and Love
A. Jay
Over the past few years I've discovered my love of art. The artist within me has of course always been there but it wasn't until I met my current boyfriend and fellow artist, Andrew, that A. Jay emerged and I produced this.
My first attempt at photography, having no prior knowledge of how a camera works or even grasping the idea of light, form, exposure, etc, seemed to have gone well. The photo shoot itself was very much unplanned and not executed in the most efficient way. I did what felt natural.Overall it was fun and my models were very patient with me. I left the photo shoot confused about the direction of my life. I did however know these three things.
1. Taking photos brought me ABSOLUTE JOY
2. I loved ART
3. I wanted to do this the rest of my life.
For a great part of my life I have always been told that nothing was impossible and that it was never too late to achieve whatever I wanted to. I reaffirmed these things to myself and decided that I would become a photographer. I spent many nights conversing with Drew and Von about being an artist and what that means. I've never seen two people try to convince someone so much of a talent they could not see in themselves. I want to thank both of them. Two years later I find myself at a brick wall of sorts. (Mostly put up by yours truly). As the end of one chapter came to a close (Undergraduate career) I presented what I thought to be my best work to an art school. These photos:
Among 17 others were submitted to Columbia College in hopes of admittance. Imagine my pain when I was rejected from that school with a single white piece of paper that stated, "We at Columbia hold our students to a certain level"... It of course went on with the pleasantries one comes to find in a rejection letter. I took it so personally and for a long time I wallowed in self-pity.
I wasn't good enough?
For a long time this truth appeared in my mind as a question. I kept asking myself if I was good enough and allowed this doubt to trickle into other aspects of my life and here I am today. I'm not all the way healed, but the question isn't about whether I possess the talent. It's only a matter concerning time.
I WILL be good enough.
But I have to put in the man hours to deserve what it is I want. Everyday I teach myself something new concerning photography and more generally ART. I will share what I learn here and hopefully grow from it. Isn't that what life is about?
GROWTH?
The ability to express one's self is a God given talent. I won't waste what He has given to me.
Peace and Love
A. Jay
Thursday, November 12, 2009
New Works
I've been dying to shoot for a while. My schedule does not permit this to happen. I've had many ideas and all I need is the space and the opportunity. In the mean time feel free to take a gander at some of my latest works and variations on older pieces. I feel stagnant as an artist, mainly because I've been teaching myself. I desperately crave to be molded by someone who oozes talent. I pray that day comes soon.
Sunday, September 6, 2009
Going Back
I attempted (rather successfully) to re-create my first photo shoot "Shades of Ebony". Here are some of the pictures.
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
Growth
I see myself growing as a photographer. I'm shedding the doubt I once had about my God given talent and now I embrace it. I've spoken with an admission counselor at SCAD and she encouraged me to bring my portfolio to a viewing in October. I really hope that goes well. Here's a sample of some of my latest work.
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